DAY 72

Staying home has become the new normal. Every day is pretty much a repeat of the day before. On days like today when Miss Nine is with her dad or my husband for long stretches of time, I can enjoy the peace and quiet of being home. The demands of other people can be exhausting, so time alone is more precious now than ever before. Often I go to my office at our business after the store is closed. I can focus and get so much more done when there are no distractions.

I have given up wanting many things because it is too painful or disappointing to want something that you just can't have. I can't hold my new baby granddaughter. I can't get a haircut. I can't hug my friends. It is so much easier to let go of the wanting and slip into acceptance. Life is becoming more a matter of what is absolutely necessary, a letting go of all of the things that we fill our days with. Things that we do to avoid our inner selves. I am choosing to embrace the basics, the deep lessons, the small joys of every day. I have spent over half of my life trying to practice the principle of living one day at a time. It has taken this devastating virus to ground me solidly in that way of being.